For days now, sleep has evaded me. Every attempt to shut those wonderful eyes that show me the world results in a catastrophic chain of events ending in terrible dreams, nightmares, I suppose. It's so strange because this has come so suddenly, I mean usually I'm just like any of you guys probably are, reasonably happy and content. But every now and then some force of nature or God or SOMETHING comes along and just seems to permeate the very soul.
I'll be honest, in the past I have taken sleep for granted. "It's just there" is what I would say to myself, just like strip clubs and casinos and prisons. But what happens when its not there? I mean I don't visit a strip club every day, gamble constantly and I've never been in prison but I know that they exist and I can visit them any time I like right? Sounds quite logical to me, I dunno if not then post a reply. Anyway's, sleep is just the same in my mind, its just not a physical place. Rather its just a part of my being, and enables me to explore my own subconscious and be at peace with it, meaning that if I don't get sleep I don't have peace. Is it the same for everyone?
I mean, some people go to Church, I used to go to a Mosque (gave it up), others drink booze or take drugs whenever they feel down, but I've always found that sleep is just my natural drug, and it's great because it doesnt have any side effects but allows me to continue living in a relatively peaceful state.
Ironically, it's because of a lack of sleep that I decided to start this book or blog or whatever, because I feel like my personality is split into two at the moment. Part of me is a lazy bastard that doesn't what to achieve what he's capable of, and yet another part wants to go out there and improve everything in the world! Two extremes of reality.
I guess what's really going to bug you all later is who is actually writing... is it dauodwa, or sumdude, or ... a freak? My guess is as good as yours.
A good day to you fine folk.
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